How Tyler & Ariana's mommy remembers them RIP angels

Ariana and Tyler when they were alive
Everyone always asks me what Ariana and Tyler were like.

Here is how I remember them.
I would love to tell you about Ariana and Tyler. They were the most wonderful children that any mother could have. Ariana and Tyler were 11 months apart. They were so close in age, and I think that is what made their bond so much closer. After leaving my ex-husband when Ariana was only 4 weeks old, we moved into our own place. There were not a lot of other kids around, so they mostly played with each other. It was always the 3 of us. I didn’t want to send them to daycare. On our days at home, they played like most normal kids do. Tyler loved to play outside in the backyard with his trucks and his cars.

Ariana would play with her dolls. Her favorite activity most of all was coloring. She had a little bag that she would carry everywhere. Before we went anywhere, she would make sure that it was stocked up with her paper and her crayons and coloring pencils. She would put pens, markers, and even chalk in that little bag–anything that she could color with.

She just loved all the different colors. She would fall asleep coloring on most nights. I cannot forget to tell you that she would sometimes extend her artwork from paper to the walls or dressers. LOL.Tyler loved Scooby-Doo. He had Scooby-Doo bedsheets, and t-shirts, and every video possible that had Scooby-Doo.

He liked to ride his bike (with training wheels, of course). Ariana never got the chance to learn how to ride a bike.Every day we would have what I called “Quality Time”–that is when I turned off the TV and shut off the phone and didn’t answer the door. Because for that one hour every day, it was about us being together. I would let them choose what activity that we were going to do. Usually it was making cookies. Tyler LOVED to cook! Or we would do arts and crafts because that was Ariana’s favorite. I remember how I bought one of those toy kitchen sets for Ariana, and Tyler would fight her to play with it. I had to go out and buy another one so they each had one.

Every time Tyler would get a little money, he would ask if we could go to the store so he could buy plastic food for his kitchen set. LOL.

They were the most amazing children. They loved each other so much and had a bond that was inseparable. They were like night and day, though. Ariana would go to bed early; Tyler liked to stay up late. He would wake Ariana up if she was sleeping and he was awake. She loved milk with her food; he drank juice. He was particular in what he ate. Ariana loved to eat.

She would eat everything on her plate then move into Tyler’s seat and eat the rest of his meal. Their personalities were so sweet and gentle. Tyler was a true momma’s boy. He liked to be everywhere I was.

Ariana was more independent. She would play by herself and be comfortable with it, but she was very cuddly. She would sit on my lap for hours and didn’t move. I can still hear her little voice in my head saying “I LOOVVE YOUU.” It was such a sweet gentle voice.Okay, this is getting harder to write.

I think that I am going to stop now because I can barely see the keyboard. My heart is broken, and no one can fix it. The pain that I feel is immense. I have no earthly words to explain what I am going through. It feels as though my heart has been ripped out of my chest while it was still beating and I am left to survive with this big gaping hole where it once was.

If I could do that day over again, I would. I would trade places with them if I could. There is nothing in this world that could compare to a mother’s grief. I am extremely saddened by everything that they had to go through.